Year End Decompress: 2019

Time is a strange concept.

At times it seems unidirectional, flowing like a river. Paying no heed to the ones who can’t keep up with the pace. Eroding everything on the way. Tossing away what once claimed to be forever, like a tumbleweed.

Obversely, its cyclical nature blows my mind. Everything that time serves you has a rhythm to it, set by a burning circle.

Not trying to draw a dichotomy here, they are two sides of the same coin.

Another year has passed and a lot has happended or maybe not. It’s the time of the season where we take the opportunity to give a toast to all that we gained, gratitude to the good that stayed, and cheers to what we lost on the way.

Some Important Milestones

Here are the most important milestones that planted themselves and will always make me remember what a year 2019 has been.

Changed Job

I joined SquadPlatform right after graduation and loved every day I spent there. It became my home. But some things did not work out and I had to move out. Later in the year, I joined UrbanClap and I remember telling a friend that it seems like I’ve moved away from home.

Well, the good part is I’ve found a new one.

Moved to a New City

After living in Noida for around 2 years. I moved to Gurgaon. Geographically that might not be very far, but your heart doesn’t know that. So I guess it counts.

The closest friend moved out of town

My childhood friend and I got our jobs in the same city after graduation. 

We even ended up joining the same company and living just 2 blocks away, partying, working, just like how we used to dream about when we were kids.

Life goes on and he had to move out of town. But we both know, that changes nothing.

Got dumped

After dating my ex for around 3 years, she dumped me out of the blue. What I thought will last forever ended in a way that I still cannot believe.

Some relationships last, some disappear. Truth is, many of us don’t get it right. But I think we are all supposed to try.

Every cloud has a silver lining. I think I needed a major shakeup in life before I start think of settling.

Went on a five day trek

I love traveling. Be it solo, in a group, whatever. As long as I’m waking up to a different sun every day, I’m on for the journey.

This year I went on my first 5-day trek to Hampta Pass. From, no electricity, living on bare essentials, spending cold nights in wet sleeping bags. To, waking up at dawn to let the first sun rays kiss your face, submitting yourself and your ego to the massive mountains and in return getting the sense of being. This was one hell of a trip.

Read eleven books

I generally don’t like keeping count of what I’m reading. That’s why I avoid setting the upper limit. It’s not 11 out of X, it’s just 11.

Some titles that I liked were:

  • Zen mind, beginner’s mind.
  • The kite runner
  • Sam Walton: Made in America

I love reading. Something that I’ll do more in the coming year.

Turned 24

It sucks but I turned 24 this year. What seems like just a few years ago, being 24 was hard to imagine. Well, I’m that year old and it has not been that bad, to be honest. Life’s been good to me so far.

I wish I could stop this train though for some time, I do not like the pace it’s moving with.

Milestones I’m planning to set the next year

If there was one thing that 2019 taught me, was that you never know what life has for you to offer. Don’t feel entitled to anything, just have gratitude to the good that crossed your way, and for whatever time it stayed.

Still, here I am attempting to list milestones that I wish I’ll meet the next year.

Do the next big thing professionally

I’ll do whatever it takes to take my professional career to the next level.

I am working on an open-sourced project, I’ll make sure that it sees the light and gets delivered. 

I always hated competitive programming, but next year I’ll spend time to improve on this front.

I also have one more idea of what can be a good project. I’ll make sure that it gets implemented too.

Give more time to my family

This is the saddest part of adulting. You realize that your parents are getting old. You can feel the clock ticking.

Well, I’ve decided that I’ll make it worth it. I have a tripped planned with my Mom and I’m excited how it goes.

Travel more

I don’t want to be the one who dies in the corner of the world where I was born. Next year too, I’ll make sure to complete at least two trips.


In the end, I’ll just like to remind myself of the following lesson I learned from a zen master, as I embark on the journey to life through another year hopefully.

‘Now it is raining, but we don’t know what will happen in the next moment. By the time we go out it may be a beautiful day, or a stormy day. Since we don’t know, let’s appreciate the sound of the rain now.’

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